uh, whoops...

So.... So, today, I tried to, after a... five month hiatus, I tried to start therapy again. I was nervous, I was excited, I was ready.

Part way through the initial meeting, but mind you, after I had divulged a lot of really personal information--definitely not the sort of stuff I normally talk about with people I've just met--my assigned therapist told me he'd realized that he knows David and Terry. He wasn't specific about the context in which he knows them, just said that he saw them in social contexts. Okay, so he was exceedingly vague, which, after talking to David, I realized why he was so vague.

Anyway, so, we decided that it would be weird for us to continue therapy, and he would set me up with another therapist in the program.

I need to go deal with this. It's weird.

Internets and Zines and Things

So, I've realized that my internet addiction is circumstantial and not really an addiction. Most of the week, I am without computer and internet, and I'm fine--no withdrawal or anything. Also, while I've known what zines are for years, I don't really have much exposure to them. However, I recently read a great zine-- Doris 24--and I've become involved in organizing events surrounding Love Your Body Day (October 17), including the making of a body-positive zine, and I want to make zines. I also want to write letters that I actually mail, or hand deliver. Bless the internets and blogging, but I'm ready for paper, for up close and personal, sabulous (look it up) relations. It is time for confrontation as a way of life, my friends.

thoughts

Okcupid asks me, "What makes for a better relationship: passion or dedication?"
I don't remember how I answered. It depends on what type of relationship you want I suppose. That is, I suppose, the point of the question. What if I'm not limiting myself to one type of relationship? They say you can't have your cake and eat it too, but I'm hungry...
I think that a relationship needs passion to begin and dedication to continue. Of course, there are relationships that start as a dedicated friendship, and suddenly or gradually become passionate affairs. Hmmm. Hmmm, I say.